When Marriage Is Worth Your Most Earnest Effort   Leave a comment

In battling the stages of “Im doomed” or “It’s doomed” scrutiny, that Satan and his angels seem ever eager to hand out, I found out that in no particular situation was I at all counted out unless I myself gave up. When did I want to give up? When the going got tough. 

This was certainly present starting several months ago. Although I knew very well that the adversary only had as much power and influence over me as I give him, I began to do a little “Stinkin Thinkin” (As we call it in AA/NA). 

I figured, if only for a short period, “Man…. sin is sin, and i’ve gone this far, whats this to me now?” I could feel myself doing a little of what Paul warned against. I’ve never seen it better put than Elder Holland addressed it, so please allow me to quote him,

“Paul pleaded with those new members…that we cannot sign on for a battle of such eternal significance and everlasting consequence without knowing it will be a fight—a good fight and a winning fight, but a fight nevertheless. Paul says to those who thought a new testimony, a personal conversion, a spiritual baptismal experience would put them beyond trouble—to these he says, “Call to remembrance the former days, in which, after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflictions.” Then this tremendous counsel, which is at the heart of my counsel to you: “Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward.

“For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise. …

“… If any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him.

“… We are not of them who draw back unto perdition.”

How foolish of me to ever at any point consider drawing back or giving up! Elder Holland continued by sharing…

“In Latter-day Saint talk that is to say, Sure it is tough—before you join the Church, while you are trying to join, and after you have joined. That is the way it has always been, Paul says, but don’t draw back. Don’t panic and retreat. Don’t lose your confidence. Don’t forget how you once felt. Don’t distrust the experience you had. That tenacity is what saved Moses and Joseph Smith when the adversary confronted them, and it is what will save you.”

When the going gets tough, where did my thoughts get me going? Well, Satan is a relentless individual bent on the destruction of my soul, my wife, indeed the entire fabric of my family. But what was important was the recollection I had, and it came from that same talk Elder Holland gave, that I remembered this critical and crucial part:

“…opposition turns up almost any place something good has happened. It can happen when you are trying to get an education. It can hit you after your first month in your new mission field. It certainly happens in matters of love and marriage. It can occur in situations related to your family, Church callings, or career.

With any major decision there are cautions and considerations to make, but once there has been illumination, beware the temptation to retreat from a good thing. If it was right when you prayed about it and trusted it and lived for it, it is right now. Don’t give up when the pressure mounts. Certainly don’t give in to that being who is bent on the destruction of your happiness. Face your doubts. Master your fears. “Cast not away therefore your confidence.” Stay the course and see the beauty of life unfold for you.”

My wife, my kids and the eternal welfare of everything precious to me was dependent upon a decision to get better! It was a decision only I could make myself. I love them, and the Savior, so I made the choice to get and feel better- nomatter the cost. The following video shows why I knew I could do it if I tried and I wanted it bad enough.

I’ll end this entry with the video brethren! God bless you all. (If you cant get the video in your email, simply visit the blog at plainvieweq.wordpress.com)


Posted February 1, 2012 by rexfordgbeardsleyjr in Uncategorized

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